Miracles

I started believing in miracles when I was a little girl and pondered under a tree. I was a rather arrogant child quite confident in my thinking abilities and I felt I could explain almost everything in the universe, everything except the tree. I remember clearly still how I thought if I would have created the world I surely would have thought of the birds and bees, the fish and other mammals, and all the elements known and unknown, but I could not imagine that I would have imagined a tree. I love trees and I am glad I did not create the world, for in my world there would be no trees. To me, the tree is a miracle. I can’t see a tree without knowing in my heart that anything and everything is possible.

October 1979. My father was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer. His doctors thought his cancer was too advanced and sent him home to die. My mother sent him back. She told them she had three children in college and one in catholic school so she could not lose her husband just yet. One hundred eleven (111) days later, and with over seventy (70) hours worth of surgery behind him, my father came home a small, emaciated man. Within a year, he was back up to 200 pounds.

When my father was very ill I stopped in a Catholic church to pray which was quite the miracle in and of itself for I am not Catholic, despite my Mom’s best efforts and intentions. I stopped to pray for my Dad and my father’s mother, who had been dead six years at this time, came to visit me and simply said,

“He’s going to be alright.”

The interesting thing is that I did not question whether or not my grandmother’s spirit came to visit me; I simply believed she came to visit me and I believed what she had to say, so I stopped worrying. When I later shared this story with my Mother she remarked,

“Wootsie (for that is what we called her) wouldn’t be caught dead in a Catholic Church.”

My Intentions

I'm trying to take Dr. Wayne W. Dyer’s challenge and turn my intentions into my reality. As with everything I do, I have to over think this. You would think by now that with all my thinking I would become good at it, but alas, such is not the case. If anything, the more I think, the less my thoughts make any sense, at least to me anyway.

WEEK 1: Connecting to Intention
So here I am at the very beginning of the challenge stuck at the gate. In order for my intentions to become reality, I have to actually INTEND something. What are my intentions?

I figure I may as well start with the Note for some good ideas. Sounds reasonable, right? Big mistake. I tried to read through the 1,448 comments that were made to his note, but like many Facebook notes, most of his respondents lack the decency to write something meaningful, instead preferring to clutter the page with comments such as “Thanks very much” and “The world is a better place because of you”, as if that is supposed to help anyone.

Perhaps I should intend to stop thinking everything is about me.
Nah, that doesn’t work for me.

I jokingly wrote my sister (who invited me to the challenge) and said my intention was to “rule the world”. As much as I would love to rule the entire world (and would be great at it if I so desired), I think that would be quite lonely and would take a lot of work on my part. To make matters worse, once I became Absolute Ruler of the Galaxy, what would I strive for? Plus, people who try to rule even a small corner of the world usually end up being people I despise such as Madass Insane (Saddam Hussein) and Momar Needstodie Khadafi. I hate to speak ill of the dead and I don't like to wish the living ill, but Saddam had to go and I would love for Khadafi to share a scalping cup of bad coffee in Hell with him.

Nah, Ruler of the Universe doesn’t work for me.

There should be a Week 0. Week Oh: State your intention.
I intend to …
- Become as powerful a force in the world as I can become, without having to work too hard at it.
- Become super rich, without having to sell anything or do anything.
- Be healthy, without having to watch what I eat, exercise regularly, or get enough sleep.
- Be loved by everyone, without actually having to interact with anyone on a regular basis.
- Be the smartest person alive, without having to read anything or listen to those who know more.
- Grow another 3 meters taller.

Wait a minute. I’m stuck. That last one is just a dream. I’m pretty sure I’m not going to grow anymore. I stopped growing when I almost hit 5’4”. I’ve been working so hard trying to grow another ¼ inch that I’ve neglected to grow in other directions, well except for my waist and other parts of my body I wish would shrink.

I have figured out my intentions:

I intend to grow in a positive direction.

I intend to let go of those things which I know are unattainable and instead work on those things which are. I’m never going to be 19 again. 19 was such a wonderful year. I’ve had better years (such as every year since my son was born!) but 19 was so great that Steely Dan wrote a song about it. I’m going to make 48 so great that I’ll want to write my own song about it.

I’m not going to rule the world, but I can rule my life.

I may or may not become super rich, but I can earn more money, invest more wisely, and protect my assets. I can make better choices. I intend to take control of my financial well-being.

I can have a better body today than I did at 26, and I had an awesome body at 26. I know everything I knew back then plus I’ve learned a lot since then. The only thing that has changed is my desire, so now I just have to want it. I have to change my intentions and intend to be in great shape. I intend to maintain a healthy lifestyle.

I INTEND TO REACH MY FULL POTENTIAL AS A HUMAN BEING.

Those are huge intentions. I’m up to it.

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